Sometimes i feel like I don’t…

There is something that struggles hard to overcome our true fine nature: the all mighty “I don’t!”

This is the feeling I’ve experimented. When someone asked me to do something I reacted with the mighty one. There’s always a very big problem: finally you have to do that chore or other things, you name it, but your mind is set on “I don’t”…

So, this is it. another mountain to claim… But until then: I don’t !

Christ is Risen

Patience, patience

I’m growing patience ! I’ve been cultivating this “rare flower” for some time now and I’ll do it as long as everyone around me is throwing themselves in a terrible spin of rushed decisions leading to unpredictable outcomes, usually bad ones. I don’t understand why is someone so willing to sacrifice it’s freedom and health for others to enjoy them ? Why are so eager ?!? Some say its all about the money, because, this abstract concept will buy at some point in time freedom and health.

Yes, yes, I’m talking about selling your present freedom and health ruining them in order to pay for them at a later time. Do you sense it ??!?

Some say that’s because they have to put bread on the table and they have no alternative and because they have mortgage, car insurance, kindergarten, school, college… pfffff… you name it: all the right reasons to consider other ways small talk and mad visions. Oh, Dear Lord how did we managed to hurt ourselves so badly…

I could say that I have a privileged status: I’m in the favorite position to think and write about “rare flowers”. Oh, yes I’m and I’m gracious but for how long ?!? There’s always something to crush and squeeze.

There are some moments in life when suddenly everyone is interested in your welfare: ‘I found a very well payed job for you !”… “Oh, you could have gained so much with all the stuff you know… it’s such a pity!” We shouldn’t question the good intention, but we should question and put put our very soul on trials… It’s not a question of why its a question of who am I…

But all this are too much for a pour chap “raising Goodly tomatoes (and in Romanian)” and treasuring it’s unique flower: patience – “Vanity of vanities, all is vanity”

Attain perfection in 3 simple steps !

1. Make sure you look fab and smile all the time!

2. Make sure you smell good, real good.

3. Make sure  you say it loud and clear to everyone: It wasn’t me, I didn’t do it !

see you’re perfect ! how could someone challenge that ? Oh, my God it was so simple…

The geengrocery of thoughts

He who is pure cast the stone first brought a lot of meditating these days to me… It seems to me that the world that sorounds me is much more like a greengrocery of thoughts and actions aimed to become somebody’s else soup. People are so eager to cook the soup forgetting about the place they bought their vegetables.

Good deeds seem to be so rare, good word is nowhere to be found but from God. Is this the way people should treat each other ? The only good words are said only if there’s something personal to be gained afterwards ?

Equilibrium-faith, order-praying…

Life always put you in the right angle to see everything as a continuous battle… a fierce competition of who gets what ? I say this is stupid ! Behind wretched Darwinist conceptions lays a higher truth: the principle of equilibrium.

This should guide actions in my opinion. Faith is the supreme manifestation of equilibrium. It should be the goal of all our actions. I chose supreme !

There is a continuous course of actions that stands in the way of becoming better. Like, lets say administrative issues of our life: they consume time, they necessitate a lot of concentration, they stand in the way of achieving fast the goal of getting better (they eat learning and creativity time and assets). But on the other side I thought there should be such barriers: they bring equilibrium. They settle learning and creative time for nothing less than golden opportunities.

Once you’ve missed these windows of opportunity there is much harder gaining equilibrium. So, I came to order ! This is the first amendment of equilibrium. Order is much like praying…

I choose words

I first ingest words – a feeble manifestation of somebody’s thoughts, I digest them making them my own and afterwords I pass other words for others to ingest them.

We feed one upon the other shaping mind and spirit until the body fails !

You see there’s a problem with images and motion pictures: they impose me to accept them and I do that, but is so hard to pass images along after digestion. You see passing words is quicker. They say an image worth a thousand words but images somehow cripples your soul putting a weight on your mind: you have to transform the image into a thousand words !

I choose words.

Oh, yes: magic !

This is about MAGIC ! Everybody wants something to sparkle their life… something to pull them out of their daily struggle.

Now watch me perform a very old magic number. I will take your feelings and I’ll make them so sweet charged with an extraordinary magical deed that will entirely rewire your whole life. WATCH MY MAGIC UNFOLD… open your soul and your senses.

I will take you now and I’ll whisper something in your ear. Now, lean down to me:

“You are an ocean of knowledge. Share it ! Become once and for all your own good superior. Ask for power, pure power from God. Become powerful knowledge !”

Now, as you see you are completely transformed !

I wish I knew it all…

There are some times in my life when people are expecting more than I could offer. I believe everyone is in this horrible race between other’s expectation and your true nature. There are moments when you offer everything you’ve got to satisfy other’s needs but every time they want more, something extra, something coming out of their own unfulfilled knowledge or experience, a constant need of gaining the quick way knowledge that other possesses without loosing time and without sacrificing their own time dedicated rather to other more pleasurable purposes.

There’s written that all you should offer in life to others is the net and not the fish. But is hard because you have to offer more, to replenish their void in order to gain their thrust and understanding of things… in fact is your personal need not letting them down, even if you’re sacrificing a lot more than they are !

It’s all about people in fact and not the results you would like to attain to. To the end is a win-win situation: help me to help you.

OK, in order to complete this circle you have to pay the price: tiresome countless hours, precious moments…

I tell you this: is the right path !

how people can change you

Are other people’s voices changing the way you think, the way you interact, the way you… I have to confess that I feel other people’s voices carving my soul with every concept I absorb. All the people are becoming my personal collective Rodin shaping out my very soul. Some chisels are sharp and some are blunt.

The blunt ones hurt the most…